so this weekend dad & paula are going to michigan just for the sake of going i suppose.. its going to be weird without dad here. so much that i’m pretty sure it’ll make me that much happier he is in my life.

so the weekend will be a weekend of me & mom, & keira on saturday night.. but i do know how mom loves her alone time so i was thinking of going & seeing bryan on sunday. just take a 1 day trip up to CF to see him and we can just hang out & do whatever we choose. i think it’ll be good, i can see what he does on a day-to-day basis, even though he says its quite boring, i’ll just have to see for myself.

plus, i think its good for me to go up there because bryan’s not for sure coming back home until the 29th of this month. that is quite a ways away for me to wait & not see him.

speaking of bryan, we had this really good talk this past weekend.. about trust & hiding things from eachother & so on. i do trust him, but even he knows that there are 2 things within the past 2 years that he has tried hiding from me. they weren’t even really bad things, just things he hid from me because he didn’t want me to get upset. but he should just know that hiding things from me is going to make it 10X worse. i think i finally got it thru to him, but we’ll see. i hope i don’t catch him in another “lie” again. this has been 2 times in the past 2 years & there were a few things that he hid from me too when we first started dating, but then, i can see & understand those because those happened within 6 months of our relationship.

but now, being almost 4 1/2 years into our relationship, he should just know not to hide things from me. ugh, its frustrating just thinking about it, but i shouldn’t let it bother me.. we did talk about it & he says he won’t do it again. if he does, i don’t really know what i’m going to do, be extremely upset i know.. but idk.

he also made me understand that he misses me too, that i make it sound like i wait at home for him & miss him so much. he says he misses me too & he too, waits for the end of the week so he can come home. i understand that now. i really do, i think we really needed that talk.

well, my favorite show is going to be on in 3 minutes! if its not already, so i need to go watch it!!

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..long enough post ma?