Bryan came home yesterday, with a hurt knee.. so we spent almost the entire day at 1 type of doctor’s office or the other. He tore his ACL completely & tore his maniscus in 2 different spots. Poor guy. He’s probably going to spend at least the next 2 months on crutches. He’s scheduled to have surgery at the U of I on Tuesday, but he’s hoping to get the surgery done up in CF so that way he’s closer to classes. I don’t know, the way I see it.. I wish he would have just gotten it done here, stayed here this weekend & left Tuesday after his surgery if it was at all possible. He makes it seem like he’s going to be able to go right back to class but I don’t think so.. so we shall see.

Today we broke up. It hurts me & I’m upset, of course.. but I know I can’t just sit here & not go on with life. Mom says I’m not near as bad as she thought I’d be. I went through a lot of heart ache this past week, but I think if Bryan wouldn’t have told me last weekend & had just told me today he wanted to break up then I would have been devastated.

 He told me yesterday that he’s 90% sure that we’ll get back together. I just hope he’s right. I gave him back the promise ring he gave me our sophomore year.. I told him he could give it back to me whenever he felt the time was right. I miss that ring already.. I miss him already. I just don’t know. I know I have to give it time, I hope to God he realizes soon that he wants & needs to be with me too.

But I’ll just go day-by-day..

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