2 days we’ve been broken up. things aren’t exactly easier, but i’m trying to calm down about things. & give him some time. i talked to him this morning & he hasn’t heard any news on when his surgery is going to be. i asked him to contact me when he found out & he said he would.. but who knows when he’ll find out & when he’ll call..

i dont necessarily think that he wont call at all, its more of he won’t call as often as i want him to. so therefore, it stinks. crystal made a good point to me today. that maybe he doesn’t want to talk as much as i do, but at least he IS picking up my phone calls. he could just ignore them & not pick up or return my calls at all. so thats a plus, i guess. plus, i need to not call him. mom & dad made a good point yesterday saying that i need to give him time to miss me. i’m just scared that it won’t be for awhile. i miss him already, so why doesn’t he miss me?

he said he might come home some weekend before thanksgiving break with davy. but that he doesn’t want to drive down himself bc of his knee, which i can see. but it also depends on when they both work, bc sometimes they work opposite weekends so then they might not be able to come down together. thanksgiving break is in about 3 1/2 weeks for him. its going to be so hard not seeing him until then, but also maybe him not seeing me for that long will help him realize he misses me.

as far as i know, he plans on staying here at my house over thanksgiving break.. i mean his stuff is still here. i guess, at least thats what i’m hoping. =/ we shall see tho.

this is probably going to be the longest 3 1/2 weeks EVER.

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