I haven’t written in so long, so I figured I should update with everything that has been going on.

Last time, I do believe I said I had a new crush, but didn’t want to say too much about it because I didn’t want to get my hopes up. But.. now, we’re “seeing eachother”, so I figured I should write about it. His name is Darrell, he’s 22.. he’s sooo nice & so respectful. It’s great. We only met a couple weeks ago, but so far.. things are going great. We even decided the other night that we were officially “seeing eachother” & not seeing anybody else. But that we’re not going to date quite yet, because we both agreed that I may not be ready to jump into another relationship so soon. So hopefully things continue to go well.

I saw Bryan yesterday.. first time since Thanksgiving. We really didn’t have much to say to eachother. Kind of found it odd, we dated for 4 1/2 years & couldn’t find a thing to say. But oh well, everything happens for a reason, right? I talked to Darrell on the phone last night & told him I saw Bryan & he goes, “Oh.. was it love all over again?” & I was like, “No, definitely not.” & he goes, “Well that’s good to know.” =] I think I’ve just finally realized that things with Bryan aren’t going any where. Meeting & hanging out with Darrell has definitely helped me realize this and I’m glad, because it was about time something made me realize it. Like my mom has said, I’m pretty sure everything with Bryan is a closed-book. & for right now, I’m okay with that. I know there will come a day I’ll think about him & miss him, but for right now.. its good. Its where it should be.

Myyy weight. Since Bryan & I have broken up, I have now lost about 27 lbs. I don’t know if that’s something to be proud of or not.. I mean, I am just because I needed to lose weight; at the time I didn’t really want Bryan breaking up with me to be the reason I lost all the weight, but it worked. Mom seems a little worried, like she thinks I’m getting too skinny. But idk, I eat.. I really do, anybody can ask Crystal, I go over there every day & eat her out of food. Ha. I don’t know.

Lately, I have people calling me & texting me all the time to do something with them. It’s nice! I’m really & truly lucky that I still have friends. I seriously dropped all of them for Bryan.. & I’m really lucky they are able to push that aside & still be friends with me. Especially Kay.. because we were really close there for awhile & hen we stopped & now we’re slowly becoming really good friends again. We’re going shopping tomorrow.. I plan on just finishing up on xmas gifts.. but still, it’ll be a good time.

Well thats my life lately.. now I’m going to go jump in the shower, probably go to the tanning place to see if she has any openings.. then go over to Crystal’s.

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