soo.. i woke up today around 11ish, 11:30.. whenever it was that kay texted me, i dont really remember. so i got a good night’s rest, i came upstairs & got on the computer, like i do every day. checked around on a few things, checked my e-mail, checked my fb, my myspace.. so that took me awhile. i decided to call crystal before i got something to eat because i was going to eat cereal & i knew if i called her after i had already poured the milk, then i wouldn’t be able to eat & it would just get soggy. so i called her, but she didnt pick up; but i was starving hungry, so i got myself some cereal anyway.

crystal called when i had eaten about 1/3 of my cereal, but i picked up anyway, because i didnt figure we’d be on the phone too long. we ended up talking on the phone for 35 minutes. A LOT longer than i expected us to talk, but anyways, obviously the 2/3s of my cereal that was left, was pretty soggy at this point. & it was already 1:05 & i still hadn’t brushed my teeth or showered yet. so i just poured my soggy cereal into the toilet bowl & flushed it. not thinking about how hungry i’d be later on. but then i ended up grabbing a small package of donuts just in case, because i thought i’d be able to eat those & it’d fill me up til suppertime.

i got to work, work went well for the first hour & a 1/2. i didnt feel hungry, i felt kind of dizzy at times, but i didnt really think anything of it. me & this girl i work with, lily, started talking about how hungry we were & how tired we were & how work was really the last place we wanted to be. i helped her get a few residents ready for supper, she helped me; then i went in w/ sandra to get a resident up & ready to go..

i remember at this point feeling pretty dizzy & having to stop & hold onto the ez lift on my way into the room to keep me up. after a few seconds of resting on it, i felt fine. i had also just eaten 1 of those mini donuts that i had brought along. we get 1 of the residents up, decide we should probably put her on the toilet before we change her & get her ready.. we were in the bathroom & i was running the ez lift machine & started to feel extremely dizzy, i actually remember looking at myself in the mirror & my eyesight was really fuzzy, i couldn’t concentrate on looking at myself. then sandra all of a sudden says, “are you ok? you look really pale.” i was like “do i really?” then the next thing i know, i remember my knees hitting the floor, then falling over to my side & hitting my head on the bathroom floor.

i don’t even remember the actual fall. i remember falling from my knees to my side & then hitting my head. but not the actual fall. i then remember, it seemed like only seconds later.. hearing sandra say, “omgosh, are you ok? here, come sit in this chair” & me getting myself up off the floor & sitting in the resident’s wheelchair. sandra said it seemed like 2 minutes before i even responded to her, but to me; it seemed like seconds. this i don’t remember, but sandra said that i had also gotten up off the floor on my own (i thought she had helped me); but i got up without her help & then sat in the wheelchair. i remember sitting there & hearing sandra say, “i’m going to put on my call light. i hope somebody comes quick to help you!!” then lily walking in & sandra telling lily to get the nurse. (idk why, but i also remember in this time.. eating 1/2 of 1 of those mini donuts, haha.)

the nurse then came in, asked me & sandra both what we remember. the nurse had lily go & get me a big glass of OJ & then the nurse took my vitals. the nurse took my pulse right away. she said i felt really clamy, said i was sweating & that i looked extremely pale. i just sat there, i didnt know what to do. lily came with the OJ & i remember taking a few big gulps. the nurse took my vitals & asked me if i was diabetic. i said no. i dont remember the actual BP, but my blood pressure was 100 over something. i don’t remember the bottom number; alls i remember is that my bp was extremely low. & then the nurse asking if it was usually that low & me responding with a quick “no.”

then, she asked me if i could get up out of the w/c because she wanted me to go sit in the nurse’s station; i said i thought i could. & i did. i remember walking down the hall & feeling the back of my pants. i must have really been sweating because it felt like i had peed my pants. (gross!) she had me sit in the office & finish the rest of my OJ. then 1 of the other cnas came in & brought me 1/2 of a roast beef sandwhich. i remember being kind of confused & her saying (which seemed really fast to me), “is this ok? is roast beef ok? i dont know if you like it or not, i just told them to give me a sandwhich, any sandwhich.” i remember laughing at her & being like, “yeah roast beef is good.” haha.

..i sat there & ate my sandwhich, it took me a good 10 minutes to finish half a sandwhich. then i went in to feed. when i got done feeding & was pushing residents out of the dining room, i remember feeling dizzy again; so i’d just rest where i was. when my break time came, i got a bunch of food. i was just thinking, any type of food has got to be good. i just need food. when i got into the breakroom & started eating, NONE of the food tasted good. it all tasted really gross to me. i even got another class of OJ thinking the vitamins would be really good for me. i only drank about half of the oj, because that too tasted gross. these were foods i’d normally enjoy; like salsbury steak, mashed potatos & gravy, bean&bacon soup, apple crisp for dessert. but it all tasted really gross. then i decided i should probably get a mt. dew to get all the sugars out of it. figured that’d help me out a lot. even the mt. dew tasted gross, i didnt get it.

..the mt. dew ended up making me pretty hyper. haha, but then i went to help lift a resident & i started getting dizzy again. anyways, i know this is long; but me & sandra ended up deciding that i obviously fainted because i didnt get much to eat. & that the stinch of the urine smell of the resident probably didnt help at all.

so. what lesson did emily learn today at work? EAT before trying to do a physical job, where lifting is involved, 8 hour shift.

kind of the crappy way to do it, but man; it sure was a lesson learned. i dont want to feel like that ever again!!