i pretty much completely love my new job. i’m working as an na, i hoped to be a cna sooner then what its happening, but thats going to happen.

they had me training for 5 days, today was my 1st day by myself. i’ll admit, i was a little overwhelmed with everything right at first. i was scared to answer call lights by myself, because what if they wanted something & i felt i couldnt help them without somebody else being there too? but i did pretty good i think.

i felt so bad tho.. this one lady had her call light on & when i walked in, i said “yes (her name), what can i get for you?” & she goes “omg, did you not see my call light on?” i said, “yeah, thats why i’m here now” she goes, “come on, its been on for a long time now, why are you just now coming in here?”. i tried to calmly say, “we’re busy, i was busy helping somebody else” & she goes “i dont care! my light has been on for an extremely long time!!” & i was like “honestly.. come on, we were busy.” haha. i got so impatient but then i felt bad, because all she wanted me to do was read her a letter her daughter had written her. it was sad.. & i felt so bad.

i’m never going to put my parents in a nursing home, idc how annoying (sorry mom) or how much work they seem to be. i’m not doing it, i couldn’t. you know how many people put their parents in nursing homes just so they can get on with their lives & forget about them completely? thats so freaking horrible. the other day.. the nurse made me tell this lady that she couldn’t call her daughter because of the ice on the phone lines. that somehow, our phones wouldnt let us call out because of the ice. HONESTLY.. how horrible. but the nurses said that because this lady’s daughter had called work & pretty much reemed 1 of the nurse’s because they let this 1 lady call her too much. idk how somebody could honestly do that to 1 of their parents.

..ughh. idk, i love knowing that i’m helping somebody tho; its great.