what i want.
i think starting this week..
-i’m going to start tanning.
-i want to get my haircut.
-i wouldn’t mind getting a pedicure, but thats not at the top of my list.
-i need to start trying in school.
-i want to start eating healthier, because even though i’m not gaining weight, i’m pretty sure my stomach is getting bigger.
- i want to visit bryan’s grandparents, because i miss them.
i also want (but won’t happen in this next week):
- i want somebody to care for me, like i’ve cared for others. i want somebody to put their whole heart into it for me. i want somebody to think there’s nobody better for them than me. like i’ve done for 2 guys now. i want somebody to love me for me & miss me when i’m gone. i want somebody to call me in the middle of the night just to say, “i was thinking about you & i couldn’t sleep”. i want somebody to love. i want somebody to enjoy cuddling with me, just as much as i enjoy cuddling. i want somebody to want me & not be ashamed, or not have a problem telling their guy friends, “this is her.. this is the girl i’ve been telling you about.”
i sometimes wish, that i could get a glimpse of the future, to see who i’m going to end up with. do i know him already? is he somebody i’m going to meet in my near future? here in 5 years? when? is he somebody i’ve already dated? is he somebody i see almost every day? is he somebody i went to school with? i know, i know.. i’m thinking too far into the future now & i need to live life for the moment. but i can’t help but wonder who, where & when. ya know?
i’m a big believer in everything happens for a reason; but i’m still wondering why..
theres this quote, “someday, he’ll walk into your life & make you realize why it never worked out with anybody else..” & when that day comes, i know i’ll be excited & know its true. but for now, i’m just waiting..
Marge replied:
all of those dreams are realistic dreams honey.
It can all happen.
However you have to get involved in your own life and have things worked out for yourself before you can be the best you can be in a relationship.
someday “He” will walk into your life and you will be happy you waited.
And it will be wonderful.
But you have to remember to get a guy like your dad you have to find a MR NICE and not some bad boy.
That could be someone you think is a geek now…and wouldn’t consider dating.
Just keep an open mind and heart.
Okay?
Love you
February 18, 2008 at 10:43 pm. Permalink.
Kat replied:
Sweetheart, there is so much out there to do and to live. What kinds of things do you like to do? Hiking? Traveling? Swimming? Having friends over for a cookout?
What kinds of things do you want to do during your lifetime? Skydive? Bungee Jump? Go to Chicago to window shop? See the pyramids of Egypt? Go on an African safari? Jetski at the reservoir? Visit every national park in America?
Because right now, at this time in your life, NOTHING is impossible. You have no responsibilities but to yourself and you have the opprotunity to pretty much do whatever you can imagine.
And the great thing is – while you are out doing the things you enjoy, you will meet someone who enjoys doing those things too and it will be magic.
Right now you haven’t really lived – you don’t have a world view yet. Wouldn’t it be cool to go with a guy with a french accent that you meet on the streets of Paris? Or a guy from a european country that likes to sip tea at Panera with you – just gazing into your eyes?
How about a cowboy from Wyoming? Or a guy who loves to rock climb? Or a guy who owns a boat so you can go cruising? How about a guy with a mercades convertible?
Don’t EVER sell yourself short or think you can’t have it all, sweetheart, because you can. Don’t settle for a man who doesn’t adore you completely and who will go with you to see the world.
There is a saying “The world is your oyster”…well, babe, it is yours – go for it!
February 19, 2008 at 5:57 pm. Permalink.